I spent 24 years as a Naval Officer. I flew combat missions. I commanded sailors. I managed billion-dollar aviation budgets at the Pentagon. I deployed seven times across the globe. From the outside, my life looked awesome.Inside, I was unraveling.Behind the uniform, the discipline, and the sense of duty were depression, anxiety, and months of quietly talking myself out of suicide. I had mastered compartmentalizing. I didn't know how to ask for help. I barely knew how to name what was wrong.Then on a Wednesday afternoon, everything cracked open.The next morning I walked into a church I never planned to enter. Not looking for faith. Not chasing God. I just needed help.What followed I still can't fully explain.This book is about the cost of holding it all together while falling apart inside. It explores doubt, the moments you can't chalk up to coincidence, and a trip to El Salvador where I went as a skeptic and stood in the middle of miracles I couldn't deny.You may pick this up thinking it's someone else's story.By the end, you'll know it was written for you.

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About the Author

Ben Duelley

Captain, US Navy (Retired)

Ben Duelley is a retired Navy Captain, decorated combat veteran, and award-winning author. His debut memoir, God Was Always Speaking, I Just Wasn’t Listening, shares his journey through depression, faith, and redemption—drawing on over 24 years of military service, seven global deployments, and mission work in El Salvador.Today, Ben inspires readers with stories of hope and resilience while pursuing ministry studies at City Point College and the Destiny Leadership Institute. He and his wife, Eleanor, live in Texas with their three children.

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The Meaning Behind the LogoThe eagle has woven itself through my life — from sports teams, schools, squadrons and even my final rank after serving in the Navy.I created the Penta Eagles logo a few years ago to honor that theme, but something deeper clicked one morning while I was sitting in a dentist’s waiting room. I picked up a Bible from the side table, flipped it open, and it landed on this:“He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection.”
  - Psalm 91:4And In that moment I realized something. Throughout every moment of my life, God has been there, whether I knew it or not.

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When I returned to El Salvador in the summer of 2025, I thought I knew what the trip was going to be like.I was wrong.


Releasing Spring 2026

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